i met someone…
i can’t really talk so much when he’s around…
i just can’t cut my eyes off him…
the right words don’t really come out most of the time…
i just know that he understands even when i don’t talk..
he’s just amazing…
it just amazes me the way he talks and how he moves around…
i see myself so much in him that i’m little by little starting to leave the ‘old me’…
it’s hard to understand but i just think i can’t have two of me at the same time…hehe

i know im making a new ‘me’…
and i’m like learning the right things this time from someone who thinks like me..he’s just a lil better..magulo ba?hehe

i don’t care if it confuses you guys anyway…
i just don’t really know myself right now very well…

i know im acting so stupid most of the time.i apologize baby..i just can’t help myself from being clumsy sometimes.it’s probably because i know you’ll always be there to fix my crooks and help me to change.
i can’t stop the feeling that you’d be the last one to leave me and the only one to love me at my worst…

…for the one i trust to always remember me for my laughter and not my mistakes…

o dba shala?!
hehe
bongga…

i loveyou baby…
i’ll never get tired looking at you…

i hate the feeling of rejection so i choose the people i go with.
i may have low standards, i may not always be with the good ones and be with the ‘troublesomes’ instead…but i honestly find the BEST ones in the WORST crowd… Real people with reaL attitude.

if i love a person i always try to fit in their lives… it doesn’t matter if it takes so much adjustments for me…
i don’t risk my relationships with simple things… i’d never wanna lose anyone over a penny… and if not the material things, i’d lower my pride to apologize if some way it’s my fault.

im patient only with my friends and family.

when it comes to serious talks, i always expand my understanding as much as possible. and i always try to keep my opinions kind. but i still hold my own judgements carefully.

i tend to make sudden decisions when im emotional.but i take them back and eat my pride when i realize they’re wrong especially when the situation hurts me more.

i’m a go-getter and always get what i want. im patient and i know how to wait for the right time for things. but when i already said ‘it’s mine’, i’ll make sure it’s mine.

i’m trying to make-up for all the things i’ve done to my family. i may be really a rebel and arrogant sometimes but God knows how much i dedicate my dreams and goals for them. i am blessed with a 99% perfect family and i thank God for it.

Nothing really threats my life except me. I am afraid of nothing. Especially not a bitch can scare me. but aside from my feet, my heart is weak…

I cry when im trying to keep my patience and when im badly hurt inside. my tears are precious and you won’t see them unless i love you.

what else..???
ahmmm…
for everyone, who thinks badly of me… know me well first then judge me. ask me anything, honesty is my virtue. there are so many reasons why i am loved and why some things are traded for my presence and attention.hahaha! SO don’t ask me things you won’t wanna hear the answers…hehehehe!

i know i owe GOD a lot for doing something unforgivable…
but i hope he still listens to my heart and understands my feelings…
i don’t pray he take my burden way…i just wish he stand by me while i carry this burden inside me….

ang magkaanak tayo na puro bobo

ang makasama ka, sayo magkapamilya

sa ilalim ng tulay duon kita ititira

pangarap kong mabigyan kita ng kariton

ikaw at ang anak natin magtutulak maghapon

dahil ako’y walang silbe,ika’y magsisilbe

ikaw at ang anak natin mamamasura lage

mas maswerte tayo sa iba at mas mapalad,

dahil mamumuhay tayo na kapos-palad

palagi tayong magdidildil ng asin

at pag walang makain itutulog nalang natin

oh my fiancee, listen to what i say

magiging buhay natin  kahirapan everyday

walang wala ka mapapala yan ay asahan mo

dahil hindi ako magkakaroon ng trabaho

girl, pwede kabang maging asawa?

girl,habang buhay tayo mag sasama

pero hindi ka pwedeng magreklamo

at lahat ng ito’y dapat titiisin mo

at ang mahalaga ay no return no exchange tayo

oh ano?oh say mo?

bawat segundo ng buhay mo biglang mag-iiba,

buhay sa kalsada iyong matatamasa,

ititira kita sa bahay ko na madilim

dalawang beses sa isang linggo,hapunan lang tayo kakain

hindi na natin matutupad mga pangarap

ikaw at ako magsasama sa paghihirap

sa simbahan,mamamalimos ka maghapon

habang ako’y manghohold-up at mang-iisnatch ng cellphone

at lalaking mga baluga ang ating anak

pati sa eskwelahan hindi sila makakaapak

ganyan kita kamahal,ako’y magbabakal

kakainin nalang natin akin pang isusugal

inaalay ko sayo buhay ko sa basurahan

pinapangako ko sayo tayo’y walang kinabukasan

walang iwanan hanggang sa tayo’y tumanda

inibig moko girl kaya wala kang napala

binuntis kita agad kaya di na nakapalag,

sa ayaw mo’t sa gusto kasama moko magdamag

sa wakas may katabe narin matulog sa estero

magsisiksikan tayo sa aking bahay-kubo

di ka pababayaan,iingatan

nakagwantes kang magkakalkal basurahan

pero wag mag-alala kasama mo ating anak,

habang ako ay tulala,ikaw nama’y puro iyak

promise ko ititreat ko ang buong family

mag-aabang,kakain ng tira-tira sa jollibee

para germ-free, para iwas sa sakit,

kapag panis na iiinitin lang ulet

mamumuhay tayo ng marangal,hindi tayo kakain ng almusal

gutom natin titiisin,lilipas din naman

mamumuhay tayong walang luho sa katawan

****

pano na kung di ako naging sikat na movie star?

at nachambahan mo akong maging asawa

araw-araw tanduay, araw-araw tambay

imbis na rockwell dun tayo sa tulay

at sa palengke nag-aabang ng bigay

ng mga buntot ng baboy at bulok na gulay

pupunta ng channel 7 tska dun ka sama ka sa mga artista

manghihingi ng barya pambili ng ukay-ukay na may mantsa na stain,

expired na de lata botox??? na putocake!

at ang mga anak sa ampunan pdadala

kase di kaya palamunin,paaralin sila

at tayo’y nasa malate alas syete ng gabi,

ibubugaw kita at isasakay sa taxi

pero thank god! nabiyayaan ako,

kaya di mo mararanasan mga bagay nato…=)

There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Well yeah,guess i am…i think so because i stand to my own opinions whether they are right or wrong… anyway there’s no right or wrong opinion… just good or bad maybe..hehe…

Though i admit i am a rebel there are only few things in this world that will make me happy… i may only look ambitious because my current life is so full of dramatic twist and turns i never thought could happen… but for real i only want a simple life in the future… a contented life with my own family..

“All i want for my life someday is to be a happily married wife. We live in a our own cozy house in the city with all our kids. We eat three times a day minimum. My kids making their future in decent schools. and I also go to school everyday as a teacher. My husband pushes his own wheels. He goes to work and manages our business at the same time. and last but not the least,no matter how busy the day or week can get, the whole family still get to sit around and talk about family issues or anything that matter to anyone of us and be able to settle them down peacefully.”

My goals…

• I want to get up on a stage someday and receive a diploma that says i graduated Bachelor of Secondary Education.

-I emphasized the word stage because that was one of my frustrations back in High School… I wasn’t able to March on my graduation for some reason… and hopefully next time i’d be handshaking the dean as she hand me over my diploma and while being photographed wearing that blacksuit up on stage… and I swear to graduate no matter how long it takes!

• I want to pass that license examination and be a certified educator!
• I will found a dance troupe if i get to my second year of teaching in a certain school.

-another frustration…i always wanted to be a cheerleader and after passing the audition and training, something always come my way when i’m almost there.

• I will invest for a car, a house and a business.
• I will have a building for my mom… ” Doña Imelda Bldg.”

My Dreams…

• I want a church wedding with the love of my life…and everything thats will make me the happiest and prettiest bride…simple but perfectly fitting make-up and long white gown,complete family and friends,white roses all over the church,cute flower girls,handsome ring and coin bearers,and the song ‘my destiny’ as i walk down the aisle on a red carpet.

• I want a week long luxurious vacation with my special someone…hotel,beach,overlooking view,quiet starry night,mood setters,wine,stroll,chat and everything that does the magic..hehehe…im still that romantic type…

“Money is a real big thing to be happy… And a lot of it comes only after great success… And Success comes only after sacrifices..